March 24, 2013 by tomomikojima
It appears that Oprah has made decluttering her mission in every Spring. And why not? It’s a great thing.
I think what’s important is not not my realization but why. My productivity equals to my creativity. When I am not being productive, I am not creating anything. I’m not producing anything new, fun, useful or loving. What’s also important is that when I’m not feeling creative, it’s because I often feel anxious. Not all the time. But certainly a lot of the times. I think about unpaid bills, Emails I have not replied, issues I have not dealt with, taxes I have not sorted out etc etc. Cluttering is a way of avoiding and numbing. There are certain things I don’t want to deal with so I pile them up. I “plan” to deal with them in the near future meaning probably never. I’m avoiding to deal with these things. And at the same time, I am numbing myself by piling up. By thinking “well at least I’m aware and “organizing” the paperwork by piling at a specific location”, I am numbing myself. To face anything alone is a scary thing, to face something you procrastinated for long alone is a terrifying thing. I imagine it’s like giving a birth. No matter how much they cry, procrastinate, or prepare, there will be that inevitable date that all pregnant women must face and no one can do it for them.
So I spread out all my “stuff” today and dealt with it one by one. I must say though, I started this process by making a cup of coffee. If your desk has a pile of any sort, try it out by getting a cup of coffee or tea, put on your favourite music and go at it. The result is much more comfortable than starting at it from the corner of your eyes;)